June 07, 2010 Its funny.. And I can't help but wonder. My exams are over. But right now I don't feel the happiness I thought I would feel after the exams.
What is missing? I have no clue. Or maybe I do.
I want to live the life of a normal person. I want to enjoy the student life I've always pictured in my mind. I want to land my dream job (something even myself have yet to figure out). I want to do all e things I've missed out on.
I wanna be a little of you, you, you but not me.
But will I ever get the chance to do so?
Who am I really?
I want to complete my thesis, I want to take a lvls, I want to do e sat n gmat papers. I want to learn a new language. Everything other people have, I want it too!
Stop it nix. You're just overloading yourself. The perfect example is e exam I've just taken. It totally turned an innocent interest of another industry into a total nightmare of nonstop studying and pressure to continue to do well in everything I study.
This is not me. This is not who I want to be either. I just want to be myself.
But the question is : who am I?
I think my life is too cluttered and I very much need to keep things slow and simple.
Oh well. Holidays!!! I think this will solve everything. (: